Looking Back

12 Mar

I got a little nostalgic – and bored – tonight and pulled out some old writing tonight.  This is from a journal, dated August 14, 1997:

Do you know how it feels to be so mad that you could swear your blood is boiling?
Your heart is pounding and your muscles twitch with adrenaline, as the poison of anger flows through your body and you want to yell and scream and throw things around… and sometimes later you realize it was over the stupidest thing in the world.

Do you know how it feels to be so happy that you could swear your face is going to stick in a permanent smile?
You want to make everyone around you as happy as you feel and the world seems wonderful and your eyes see every color just a little brighter and your mouth is running ninety-to-nothing… and sometimes after a while you realize you were probably just being the most annoying person in the world.

Do you know how it feels to be so sad that you could swear your heart is stopping?
Your eyes feel like dams threatening to overflow with tears but you’re doing your best to hold them back and there’s that dryness in your mouth and sick feeling in the pit of your stomach and you need to swallow the lump rising in your throat… and sometimes when you do, it sounds like the loudest noise in the world.

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